Dallas,

Hey everyone! I'm back from Dallas, exhausted, but doing okay.
We worked with YWAM dallas and did a day camp with ages 2-19. I worked with ages 2-5 year olds. They were very precious children for the most part. I made a lot of little black buddies that said some of the funniest things I've ever heard. The camp was consistently very chaotic, with 100 kids on our busiest day. We taught Bible stories, did crafts, memory verses, pretty typical stuff. We took the kids swimming at a public pool, and yes, its as crazy as it sounds.

At night we did other sorts of night ministry. One night we worked with a program called ACTS. We pretty much knocked on apartment doors in an incredibly sketchy neighborhood. We gave them water and told them about the church and prayed with them. I ended up talking to a black family that was outside for a good half an hour. They were so open to the gospel and quite honest with me about how they were living their lives. (I like that about “street” people.) I prayed with them. They didn't accept Christ but I walked away knowing someday they would. It was super encouraging.

We also went and passed out water bottles at a bus station. Ive always hated this type of ministry until SOE. Now I really love it. I'm not embarrassed to walk up to a random person and ask them if they have prayer needs Hardly anyone even says no. People are so appreciative of a simple prayer and you can speak so much into people's lives.

God's been doing a lot of awesome things in me as well. And by awesome, they aren't really awesome, but actually super hard haha. But I know it will be good afterwards. Pray that I continue to go hard after what God is telling me to do.

Overall, amazing week. Exhausted. Not ready to leave, but must. I leave for Czech on Monday, and I'll update as soon as I can!

Lecture coming to an end.

Well, lecture phase is officially over and outreach starts on Saturday.
Currently I'm a bucket full of emotions.
Ofcourse I'm excited because it's outreach and its fun. But honestly I think I'm being more of a Pessimistic Patty and thinking of the stuff I'm leaving behind.
Honestly, I'm just leaving my best friend Esther behind, which is super hard. God really put her in my life for this season of YWAM and it feels like I'll never see her again, even though I will debriefing week.
Also there is stress on my shoulders that I'm trying to give God. I'm in charge of some things and have had to assume a leadership position. I realized I really do love leading things, however, there are most definitely pros and cons to it.

My heart hurts looking around my room and seeing everything packed up. This has gone by ridiculously quickly and I don't think I'm ready for it to be over.

Nonetheless, I know God knows what He is doing. Keep me in your prayers.
I'll try to update before I actually go to Czech, which is on June 28th. I'll be in Dallas from Saturday to Saturday.

Compassion makes a difference.

*Warning: Kinda long post but a very important one.*




This week's speaker was Ray Highfield. I can honestly say he is on my top five people who have inspired me in my life. I've known him for four days, but his life and testimony is an absolute image of what I would like to be.

I'm pretty sure Ray started the first AIDS help program in the states. Not like medically, but actually helping them and having a home for them. Because of this he reached out to many many homosexual people. He opened his home; Infact, his backdoor was always open and in the morning he would count heads to see how many people to make breakfast for. He started to reach out to the aids victims by visiting the aids hospital floor. He would touch them, which was quite scarce in the 80s. He prayed with them and led many to the Lord. He had one kid named Kevin come and live with him. He found out he had aids, and was planning to kill himself. His neighbor however heard from God to call him and go to his house. She stopped him from killing himself. She took him to her church but the pastor disowned him completely. She took him to another church and asked the pastor to anoint Kevin with oil. He wouldnt touch him, but threw oil at him from behind the pulpit and told him he couldnt come back. The only person who would take him in was Ray. He lived with Ray for 4 years before he died, and Kevin made a huge impact on many people through his radical salvation.
Lee, had aids and was in prison. He died while he was there. They pronounced him dead, and took him to the morgue. Before the funeral director went in there, Lee got resurrected out of nowhere. It scared the funeral director almost to death, haha. Since Lee was already "Dead", they couldnt put him back to life in records. So Ray took him in. Lee got saved, got married, and lived for 10 more years after this happened. He owned his own woodshop and was a very happy man(I saw him in a video.)
So many stories of what Ray has done.He's ministered in gay clubs where men would line up and sit at the bar, cry, give their lives to Christ, hop off the bar, and the next would do the same. Ray would go to gay couples homes, not say anything really about Christ until they asked, and they would get convicted with that alone and come to Christ and seperate. He has I cant even remember the countless and countless stories Ray told. He cried with each and every one of them. He has more compassion then anyone I've ever seen/heard about. You can just tell by looking at this eyes they way he loves people.
I got the privelege of talking to him one on one. I asked him how it was possible to love everyone no matter what they have done. He told me something along the lines of: I vision them as a child, not the adult they are now. The child who is so hurt, angry, and scared. That's who we need to minister to.
Ray's life has been very hard, especially with the loss of his son this year. These people have stolen from him, lied to him, burned walls in his house, you name it. But each time he still loves them and lets them come back. He doesn't give up on anyone no matter their past or how they act.

He brought up a point that many churches aren't ready for or to accept Homosexual/ AIDS patients. We don't know what to do with them and we reject them even if it's not blatantly. The church has done more to hurt these people then anyone else on Earth, and we're the ones called to love and preach the good news to everyone! How convicting! God said to feed the hungry, give a drink to the thirsty, etc etc etc. That means these people too. Their "sin" isn't any bigger then ours. So many times Christians put homosexuality on this scale of the biggest sin. I've done this. But really, it's not. It's just as bad as adulterers, liars, and other addictive behaviors that are in the church. We must reach out to these hurting people.
Something i loved that Ray said a bout this is: "Don't try to clean a fish before catching them." A misconception in my head was that we had to make them be straight before they could come to know God. Ofcourse they won't do that! We have to catch them, even more importantly God has to catch them before He cleans us out. We should love and talk to them like any other sinner.

Ray challenged me to love like I've never loved before. A quote he said was," We must remove ourselves from behind stained glass to save stained lives."
We as Christians must step away from our little bubble, our little wants, our comfortable lives and fufill the calling God has placed on our lives. Because honestly if we dont... Who will?

Holy Spirit.

I'm back from a wonderful weekend at Kyle's house. My best friend Esther and I both stayed there from Friday until Monday. It was very relaxing and full of Bridezilla, Massive amounts of food, shopping, clean laundry, and swimming.

I'd like to say that I'm deeply sorry for the Feuille family and I'm praying for you very much. I should update about last week.





Walter Heindereich, a german revivalist, spoke. The first day, he walked up there and started to being his teaching. Not even ten minutes into it he looked at me and said,"It's you. You will be a prophet. People will call you the mouth of God because what you say to this generation." I froze completely and my heart dropped. That's the second time I've gotten prophesised over that I would have that gifting.
At the end of his teaching, we had a worship time. I heard God say, "I will awaken the sleeping if you raise up the dreamers."
I heard is so distinctively. People who are just dreaming when they are sleeping can't do anything. But when you're awake, with dreams, huge things can happen. God can wake up the people, get them out of sin, actually change them(since we can't). But it's our job to raise up the dreams they have, to bring to light the gifts God has purposed and intentionally given us from the beginning. Pertaining to me, I was reminded of a tactic my sister used to talk to ladies in the district in the Philippines. She would ask them what their dreams were or what they used to want to be when they were kids. It brings them back to reality and raises up questions and thoughts in their head. My job is to help these dreams, their purposes, actually happen.

Walter was an amazing man in general. He was radically saved by the Lord and instantly delivered from drugs while he was at a party. It changed his life completely. He walks entirely by the holy spirit directing Him. He heals people all the time, and sees hundreds and thousands of people saved. He has HUGE ministries. But you would never know it-He is very humble. But what you can notice is the way he carries himself. You feel the holy spirit when you are around him. A few things really amazed me when he spoke.

-He said the Bible told us to "Heal the sick" not "Pray for the sick". I never ever thought about this before. Maybe us as Christians are going about this the wrong way. Ofcourse God has mercy on people, but are we actually doing what He says to do? If the healing is for them to go and be with God because that is the ultimate healing, or if they are radically healed physically, God desires all people to be healed because He is a loving God. Walter said every healing is different and you must listen to the Holy Spirit to tell you. He told us a story about this little six year old boy who loved Jesus so much and he would just touch people and they would be healed. SIX YEARS OLD! Another small girl in Mongolia brought her grandfather up from the dead because she knew he wasn't a Christian. He came alive and instantly became a Christian, and died two years later. Normal people heal people when they have the Holy Spirit. I always thought it was these special people who were high up in the church or something. No everyone, it's us! It's apart of the great comission and what God has called all of us into!

-Church isn't supposed to be in a huge church with a set worship time, set prayer time, set sermon, blah. Church in the Bible was a meeting and people listening to what the Holy Spirit told them to do. They trusted that someone would get a word or direction. People would break out into songs, not have a worship band. He wasn't anti church or anything, but Walter made me realize we are trying to fit God into a schedule when maybe He doesnt want to be in a schedule. He just wants us to listen to Him and worship Him, and He'll let us know what's on His heart. We are the body, we are the church. We each individually have a place!

Phew. So many good things were said but I dont currently have my binder.

Another thing I want to mention is the sermon that was preached at Kyle's church. He was talking about when Mary(or Martha cant remember) anointed Jesus with that very expensive perfume. All the disciples said it was a waste because it was a years wages. But Jesus said was she was doing was beautiful. She gave what she had. The pastor said something interesting: People try and try to give things they don't have instead of what they DO have. God has given us each a unique design and wants us to give Him our gifts. God isn't expecting something huge that we don't have. I guess this stuck out to me, because many times I don't feel like I have enough to offer God. But I do! I have giftings God has given me and I just need to pour them out on Jesus's feet. That's my job and should be my heart.

Again, this week is freaking phenomenal with our new speaker. But I will update when I have all I want to say. I wish everyone could hear and experience all that I'm going through! God is doing such great things.