My mind is pretty much blown.

By today.

We had a teaching on worship today and I really got alot out of it. I never realized how reverent and in awe I should be while I worship God. He is so worthy of it and I never give Him enough honor. I need to acknowledge Him and grow deeper in Him. During the morning time God really told me to search after Him, and that's when I'll find him. When I dig deeper then I know how.

So tonight we had a worship time that was really amazing. We paired up with the school of worship which is always really amazing. God has definitely anointed them.
Anyways, they made a prayer "Tunnel" sort of thing, where the SOW went on both sides and made a sorta tunnel thing and we walked through it while they prayed for us. After coming out of it, I started singing in tongues which is something I've never really done before or always felt silly doing. I don't think I've ever sung so loud in my life. I was praying for people and got a word for a girl, which was really encouraging.
Then I sat back down and my friend Nathan came and started praying for me. He prayed for me along the lines of saying God was going to break me until I couldn't survive without Him holding me together. I guess thats always been a hopeful thought in my head but I didn't exactly want it.
So I started to pray for that, and I really physically felt a melting of my heart.

"My beloved, you have lived in despair for too long. Taste the freedom I want to give to you."

I didn't even want to cry and be emotional for once in my life. I shed a few tears, but I couldn't stop smiling until the worship was completely over. My jaw literally felt like I couldnt move it from a smile. I felt joy and completeness like I never have felt before.

God really showed me areas that He is going to change on this DTS, but I'm almost thrilled about it. I want God to change me and mold me in anyway possible.

Excitement.

Today starts my first official day of D.T.S.
We have base prayer in like an hour and then have orientation for the rest of the day.

I love all the people here. Everyone is so friendly and inviting. I've made quite a few friends.
Meals are pretty much always interesting, especially if Nathan is sitting next to me.
He is my singing buddy. My roomates are Mary Sue and Kirsten. Kirsten and I are pretty similar in looks and shape wise so I guess that's cool.

I woke up pretty abruptly this morning to the loud sound of many Korean girls talking. Oh boy, what can you do.

One of the staff members told me yesterday that if I wasn't emotionally exhausted all the time something would be wrong with me. That's not very comforting. However because of it, Shelby, Katy, Nathan, and I made a late trip to Walmart to buy me peanut butter for when I get grumpy. I tried to explain to them how I am when I get grumpy but I think I failed.
I guess they'll just see haha.

Welcome to my new life in 3 pictures.

This pretty much describes Lindale in one picture. bahaha.
Where I live is quite beautiful.

This is what makes me want to stay in my bed all day.

Settling in.

I just settled in to my dorm.
It has a pretty home comfortable feeling which I really like.
I have two roomates, which I have yet to meet.
All my stuff is quite compact which of course is an absolute win.

The Tyler base is absolutely gorgeous. For all of you who don't
know what green is, come to east Texas.
Kimmie and I have been laughing hysterically at some of the things
we have seen in this small town. I'll put up pictures on here once she does.

I'm a bit nervous about tomorrow when my family leaves but I know
this is what I'm supposed to be doing. The comfort of that will help me.
I'm starting a new chapter of my life which will be exciting.

So this is a blog

that I'm going to keep during my D.T.S.

I feel like it's easier to update what I'm learning and what I'm going through as a whole, instead of having to explain to everyone separately.

I'm about to go on an adventure, just watch.