Mirrors.

I know you're not really supposed to do this, but I feel like I need to share because it will explain what I'm talking about.
Last week, from Wednesday until Sunday morning, I fasted mirrors. Well not just me, but my entire small group. We felt like the Lord was telling us to do it so we could find more security in Him.
Suprisingly, it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Yeah it kind of sucked not being able to look at yourself when there is reflections everywhere. I never knew how many mirrors there were until I couldnt look at them. So I learned a couple things from the whole experience:
1) It was good to not wear makeup for at least two of the days(Shelby did it on the weekend). I feel alot more confident without it and I actually went out without it, not just in this YWAM community.
2) On Friday I got this huge revelation. I don't want to explain all of it, but the jist of it was that my view of what I need to look like was very distorted from the standard an old ex used to apply me to. I got past most of this during plumbline, incase you forgot, but I guess I never addressed this specific circumstance. Quite honestly, I forgot about it, but God brought it back to my memory. It fully came to clear to me at that point that I deserve someone who looks at me with loving eyes and a pure desire. Someone who wants the best for me.

Learning about what love really is, and finding out how it should be, has changed my thinking on "Love." I really don't think I'll put up with stuff that used to happen to me but I dont want to see anyone else putting up with it either. But, it's good to have the perfect example to compare it to.

On another note, God has given me two really awesome scriptures about the future:

2 Like fluttering birds
pushed from the nest,
so are the women of Moab
at the fords of the Arnon.

3 "Give us counsel,
render a decision.
Make your shadow like night—
at high noon.
Hide the fugitives,
do not betray the refugees.

4 Let the Moabite fugitives stay with you;
be their shelter from the destroyer."
The oppressor will come to an end,
and destruction will cease;
the aggressor will vanish from the land.

5 In love a throne will be established;
in faithfulness a man will sit on it—
one from the house [a] of David—
one who in judging seeks justice
and speeds the cause of righteousness.
-Isaiah 16

1 Awake, awake, O Zion,
clothe yourself with strength.
Put on your garments of splendor,
O Jerusalem, the holy city.
The uncircumcised and defiled
will not enter you again.

2 Shake off your dust;
rise up, sit enthroned, O Jerusalem.
Free yourself from the chains on your neck,
O captive Daughter of Zion.

3 For this is what the LORD says:
"You were sold for nothing,
and without money you will be redeemed."
-Isaiah 52

I really like the end of the second one where it says "You were sold for nothing, and without money you will be redeemed." Maybe it has another meaning but the meaning I got pertained to prostituted women. I've been reading Redeeming Love(which I've read through half way twice. But this time it's completely wrecking me) and she was sold for nothing like most of these women are. But the only way to redemption is through Jesus. You cant buy love and purification. I don't know, I just thought it was really cool.

And for a funny ESL quote: "Julie, your voice is very..very....cuddle." -Thai Girl.